Love hurts

* audio: blind - lifehouse *

Is it really better to have loved than to not have loved at all?

Right now I disagree... having just lost the best part of my life, the best thing thats ever happened to me. Part of me cant complain... I drove her away just like I drive everyone else away.... but part of me just cant come to terms with it. My heart is breaking into more than a million pieces... and Im falling apart without u.

I really did love u B.M... Im sry for all the wrong I did and I know as many times as I apologize, it will never take away the pain I caused u. I regret not listening to u, which became the start of my downfall.

U showed me how to love someone unconditionally... with all my heart and soul, whether its the happy memories or the flaws and imperfections. U made me realize that I was right for waiting all along, b/c as soon as I got to know u, i knew that u were someone I could spend my life with.

I fucked up... I made a mistake by making u wait... we're all not perfect, Im definitely not, I made my mistake and now Im paying for it by watching u walk away from me and into the arms of another guy.

Im sry, I really am... I'd take it all back if I could, but I cant... and my ONLY hope and wish is that somewhere in the future I somehow get a chance to show u that u ARE the world... u ARE what I've always wanted, that u ARE the best and only one I wanna be with.

Im such a hopeless fool... maybe I just need to accept that I've lost u forever...... just maybe.


signing out....