Broken

* audio: rudebox - robbie williams *

I actually missed home.....=( Duty was surprisingly ok....just that this past 3 days I've been having sleepless nights....and now, I'm sick! There is alot of work to be done.....not sure if I can afford to take MC.

Get ready for HQ outing part III lol....seems like Joseph couldn't get enough of the food....AND the drinks last time that he organized another one in 2 weeks. I gotta admit, I'm shocked that I'm included in the outing since I'm somewhat the only "xin jiao" in the office who was invited....so here's extending a sincere thank you to the admin staff!

Oh ya, jie came back from her trip safely..... many of us were worried bout her going but now she's back, and she seemed to be in a cheery mood the day she got back......Hang in there jie, especially if you believe in "miracles" =)

I got 2 birthdays coming up this week.....both on same day.....sigh...guilty as charged, haven't bought anything for either yet....
What do you buy for someone who has many of the things she wants, and the thing she really wants, you can't really get for her cuz its priceless?
How bout what to buy for someone who can get anything he wants....?

I have exactly 4 days to think about it. Lord help me.


signing out....

Afronova

* audio: plush - stone temple pilots *

Saw Joseph today.....came back to camp for no reason....haha, talked to Chia....currently left with 3 working days in the SAF... found out his family will be enjoying a 3 week U.S vacation, and he is sponsoring his girlfriend to go with them as well....lucky gal....he said I could come visit his home....which is in Kembangan, with no easy access via any public transport.....must be one of those nice and big houses.....and hes gonna buy us all snacks on the day of his ORD. I'm looking forward Mr. Chia, see you next week!

I should have seen this coming.....OC is trying to organize an HQ outing....= I should have known something would come up when he asked me and Jon that other day how our life at APC was and how he could "boost our morale". The stupid thing about this is 3/4 of HQ will be ORD'ing by end of this year...so Sir, sorry to tell you that this is the wrong time to try and bond. Besides, he wants Irfan to come back and join us as well....and since Greg ORDs next week, they're not gonna be bothered bout coming. Sigh, different for rest of us though.....lol guess maybe I'll cheer up if its OC's treat?

Wait till the rest hear about this haha.....


signing out....

Go With The Flow

* audio: voodoo child - rogue traders *

I knew it would be a good day lol.....no one in office, so little work to do......found some lost "material", just as well I enjoyed today cuz rest of the week is all about work and staying in haiz....sian diao!

I'll be visiting the Istana tomorrow due to some last minute instructions, and guess what, no film for the camera....haha yes the SAF is still using old fashioned cameras, stupid fools! I don't know whos coming to visit our lovely country tomorrow, and the day after for that matter....but I'll be going to take pictures of these strange people for the next 10 months and post them all over the internet!! MUAHAHA!! lol ok sorry I'm a bit high...., thanks to the M n M's I had for dinner =)

I was watching that 9:00pm chinese drama show on channel 8.....man that Pierre Png character is a moron.....I'd smack his pretty face silly if I was on set......due to the script, he's in the middle of 2 sisters....he ends up going out with the younger one but wants to marry the older sister.....thats fucked up, and he's an even bigger retard when he tries to get engaged to the older sister in front on the sister's parents....can you say ASSHOLE!? It's all the script's fault!! Anywayz, tune in to channel 8 if you wanna find out what happens....

"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you"
Agree or disagree? Think about it.

That's all folks!


signing out....

Semi Charmed Life

* audio: fly from the inside - shinedown *

All good things must come to an end haha.....back to the boring office tomorrow....sian!!! This week is gonna suck, stay in Thursday night, stand in COS on saturday, duty on sunday, then S1 conference monday morning....lol there goes my precious weekend......

Went to the hospital cuz I needed a new appointment card, ended up wasting a trip cuz the doctor wasnt in and the lady at the desk didnt know anything. Thought bout going around town to look for some things, but decided against it after I blew almost $80 on 2 shirts a few dayz ago. I was gonna go home and take a nap, but Cheryl called me for lunch at J8...since I was going in the direction, decided to meet up and gossip lol. Everything finished around like 1 plus, she had to go to some class thing, so I went home to clean the house up a bit. Turned on the tv around 4 plus and noticed there was gonna be a Miss Teen USA 2006 so....hey why not! Man those girls were hot.....it makes me reminisce about before coming back to serve. I'm what many people call a "banana" so I could marvel at the "ang moh" beauty haha....Speaking of which, I noticed alot of Singaporeans either stay local (which I don't blame them for) or are obsessed with jap or korean chicks....lol not that japs and koreans aren't "kawaii" or anything, but whats with the obsession?

Didnt have dinner again.....I'm "dieting" haha like my jie was doing before....I didnt know how out of shape I've become.....thats what you get when you don't do IPPT for over half a year.....it should be like a year between my last and next IPPT test...so must jia you! lol

I'm out, book in tomorrow morning!!


signing out....

Ignorance is Beautiful

* audio: the journey kopano part III - hans zimmer *

Wow, the long weekend couldnt have come at a better time....I'm finally able to somewhat catch up on all those sleepless nights accumulated weeks before....and I still got one more day to enjoy before going back to the office.....luckily most of my superiors won't be here this week.......what a slacker yours truly is eh haha

I've decided to try and be educational today lol (half of it is useless info)


Did You Know.....

China will soon become the number one english speaking country in the world

The 25% of population of the highest IQ's in China, adds up to be greater than the total population in North America

1 out of every 8 couples married in North America last year met online

The number of text messages sent and received everyday exceeds the entire population of the planet

There are about 540 000 words in the english language, about 5 times as many during Shakespere's time

More than 3000 new books are published daily

It is estimated that a week's worth of "The New York Times" contains more information than a person was likely to come across in their lifetime in the 18th century

The amount of new technical information is doubling every 2 years. That means for a student starting a 4 year technical or college degree....half of what they learn in their first year will be outdated by their 3rd year of study

Predictions are that by the year 2049, a $1000 computer will exceed the computational capabilities of the human race

If MySpace were to be a country, it would be the 11th largest in the world

Last but not least....

Name this country:

Richest in the world ----> Largest military ----> Center of world business and finance ----> strongest education system ----> world center of innovation and invention ----> highest standard of living......


Answer: England


Maybe you knew all that, maybe you didnt, just treat it as general knowledge I guess. Finally got the pics from the trip and my HQ outing all consolidated, might post them up later if I'm not too lazy. Haze was pretty good today, explains why I'm not so sick anymore....I can finally sleep in peace again. My back's also been acting up again....not sure whats going on, maybe need to go back for some physio or something.....sigh, sucks that my back will never be 100% again....all thanks to SBJ!! What if I cant play hockey anymore? =(


signing out....

Hole In The Head

* audio: far away - nickelback *

What if there was no life?
Nothing wrong, nothing right....

What if there was no time?
No reason or rhyme....

What if you should decide....
That you don't want me there by your side....
That you don't want me there in your life....

What if I got it all wrong?
And no poem or song, could put right what I got wrong, or make you feel I belong....

What if you decide....
That I can't be there by your side....
That I can't be there in your life....

Every step that you take, could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or break, but thats the risk you must take

Life is funny....just when you think you got it going the way you want it, something alwayz has to happen and make you re-think things.....or when it seems nothing can go right, something unexpected happens, giving you that ever slim hope and mindset that things wil get better.....in fact, when you think about it, life teases you....
Are you up for the challenge?

Oh ya, ah neh somehow found this link of our officer during his bartending days.....Recently hes taken a liking to calling me "canadian", haha hes quite a funny fellow.....so far lucky haven't kena scolding by him yet lol....
Here, check out the funny outfit:
http://www.youth.sg/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=651&Itemid=28&limit=1&limitstart=9&sidenavpos=5


Anywayz, I'm a bit lazy to make this blog look more "decorative"....mainly cuz I don't really know how....BUT also cuz I'm not that creative a person so I cant think of what to put or add to it.....
Therefore, any suggestions or help will be welcomed!

Expect the unexpected.


signing out....

Running Blind

* audio: everything you want - vertical horizon *

Happy Deepavali to all!! =)
Wishing everyone out there a safe and joyous holiday!

Back in reality.....
Today sucked major ass....felt sick the whole day....wanted to just curl up and sleep.....woke up only at 12 plus...latest ever for me, talked to my parents on the phone for a while, ate lunch....and yup, guessed right, back to sleep. Sigh, woke up around 6 15, scrambled to find something for dinner....ended up eating nothing =( and the weirdest/scariest thing happened!! i was walking in the kitchen and I suddenly like just collapsed!! Something like fainted...but I was like half conscious still....almost smacked my head on the sink.....man that would have been nasty shit. Anywayz, after I "fell", took a few minutes to get back up, then I like crawled to my bed and just lay there looking like stoned.....I must have looked quite funny haha. I was actually scared to go take a shower after that....but hey as they say here in S'pore --> bo bian lol....thankfully i got through the shower without any mishaps, so just went to the tv and channel surfed for like 10 minutes. Man tv here sucks on the weekend.....my friend said thats cuz people are supposed to be out having fun.....what about poor chaps like me? Spare a thought for us you bastards!!

Hmm, for the life of me I can't remember everything that happened on Friday....I know I went to camp as usual....but wth did I do at night? Last thing I remember doing that night was puking.....speaking of which....I think I'm sick.....oh well what doesn't kill me is supposed to make me stronger right?

Thursday night was Sgt Irfan's ORD day....so we went to have a nice HQ celebration. Greg booked us dinner at Rice Table at Suntec....it was like a buffet...food was pretty good so worth it. Joseph turned out to be a chicken eating machine.....and after we finished first round of food, kept bugging the waiter to bring him extra plates of chicken....haha ended up it didnt come. Chuan Feng came late and it was his and Greg's turn to eat everything....kept ordering more chicken and the satay lol....finally at like 9 30, Greg finished devouring his food so we planned to take a nice walk to Eski bar for drinks. Took us a while to get our bearings right haha but we made it to Eski, and after the walk, we appreciated the coldness even more. Who would have thought that Joseph of all people would end up drinking the most? Haha after the first one, he developed like a craving for alcohol and ended up spending another like $40 on a few more drinks.....and he calls himself a "good boy" lol. We relaxed in there, hung out for a bit, then around midnight decided it was time to go home. Ended up sharing a cab with Chuan Feng and Greg.....got home around 1 plus, showered and tried to sleep for a few hrs before booking in back to camp that same morning. Congratulations Irfan, you're done with the SAF. Enjoy your freedom once again and good luck with your studies! We'll keep in touch!

I'll end with a question that has bothered me for some time now.....

"Is it possible to care about someone/something too much?"

I actually have another question but I'm not gonna post it yet until I figure out the first one. Point is, whichever answer I choose, I'm still stumped. Am I missing something?


signing out....

One Wish

* audio: in repair - our lady peace *

How many times have you been confused about what you're doing?

How many times have you ever wondered what you are?

How many times have you wondered what your purpose in this life is?

How many times have you thought about foregoing everything?

What exactly are we looking or chasing for in this facade of life?

Is life just an illusion where everything is not for real?

Are all human beings greedy?

Greedy for more power, more money, more love and more eternity? Is it all of the above mentioned?


As compared to many in this world, we would still be considered lucky and fortunate. Life is unfair, and the harsh reality is that it alwayz will be.
Perhaps it is only at the end of the route will we then realize that everything was an illusion

Only then, everything would be nothing.


Its amazing what you can write when you get into a certain state of mind. Sigh

Anywayz, tomorrow will be a long day....gotta meet up with Mr HQ spec Irfan to celebrate his ORD.....yes the lucky gentleman is done his service as of tomorrow.....he calls it the last "HQ Cohesion Outing" lol....but ya, we just gonna go out and relax, thank him for taking care of me while under his care at APC , and wish him all the best in his studies, work and life in general! Yup, think I'll end it here.....

[Blog still under construction haha]


signing out....

When It All Falls Apart

* audio: tears in heaven - eric clapton *

What must I do? What else should I do? Is there even anything I can even do anymore?

Questions keep running through my head.....mainly asking myself why my mind is going into depression again....did I mention that I have like bi-polar disorder? Or is it cuz of something I'm lacking?

I'm trying to come to terms with everything thats going on.....basically theres many questions, and no answers at all. I hate to say it, but I'm a hypocrite....I can alwayz give my friends advice on how to do things, but everytime it's me who is confused, I never follow my own advice....I guess I'm naive enough to think that things will change and be different for me, but of course...it never happens....and i suffer the consequences, thus I have no one else to blame except for myself! ARRGH!!

I was thinking about it on my trip, and also in the office today....I've lived a life with quite an amount of regrets....and even though theres nothing much I can do about the past anymore, why do I still have doubts over the present? Do we live in such a world that one does not realize their limits or mistakes until its too late? Do we not learn from our mistakes before? Is that why I feel what I feel? Oh geez, here come the questions again.......

Simply put, I guess I'm ranting about shit here cuz theres no one else I can talk to.....my group of closest friends are like 10 000 miles away, and well....my other friend who I try to treat as a sister.....she has enough stress in her own life to deal with without my bothering her with my crap.....By the way, I wish her all the best with everything.....Take care jie, it will work out in the end.

Anywayz, hopefully some answers will be found over the next few dayz....I think I'll just keep to myself for now, seeing how no one can even notice that I'm acting differently....maybe this is just a phase, another test for me to pass....If it is, I'll aim to pass with flying colors.....if not, you'll find me in some corner depressed and possibly crying my heart out......I guess thats just the way life goes.....

Till next time.....


signing out.....

Better Days

* audio: run - snow patrol *

It's been one hell of a week so far and it isn't even over yet....I'm just glad I'll be jetting off to Bangkok on Friday. Much needed time to relax and take some time away from the infamous SAF. I'm actually starting this blog out of sheer boredom since I've never done one before....just here to see what all the hype is about....

Been feeling quite down lately, not sure what it's due to yet, maybe it's the lack of FUNDS i have since I'm living alone right now. After I'm done with my trip, I think I'll be scrimping and saving every little penny I have. Talked to Kenneth who just came back also from Bangkok, and man did he shop.....he got this cool shirt that says "When I become God, Everyone dies" Haha suits him perfectly. On to better things, lol I bumped into an old friend, so we took some time to talk a bit, catch up on our "busy lives". He's enjoying life at Tuas Naval Base, working hours are even better than 8-5, its like 9-4, lucky bastard! Sigh well can't complain, I guess I'm also lucky in a way I'm only doing admin work. Thanks to APC Admin Staff who taught me what I know......Now that you guyz are clearing leave, so is like half the damn company...and you're right, we're gonna die!!! AHH!! lol I'll explain more in my next post if I remember.....

[Blog under construction]

signing out....

*1 more day to Bangkok!!!*